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| Well I guess I don't update that much anymore...nothing to great to write about right now. I'm finally like done w/ my research paper...I think I did pretty shitty..but whatever, just glad it's over. I'm going through so much right now. I seriously think I may be experiencing my first broken heart...I dunno, but whatever this is, it hurts like hell, and I find myself crying myself to sleep. A lot of ya'll know the story...met a guy and way too fast he was all I thought(and still do think) about. He's someone I was instantly attracted to and no matter how annoying or how much of a smartass he was...it just didn't matter, nothing else mattered. He could make me laugh and smile whenever I felt like shit or was totally pissed off. You know it takes a long time for me to open up and trust people...it wasn't like that with him...But it doesn't matter now, because he's gone...and I'm probably never gonna see him again...So this is what goodbye is huh? How come they teach us about all kinds of things in school...but they never teach us how to prepare for things like this. I'm never gonna forget the time I spent with him...no matter how short it was...cuz those are the memories that are getting me through the days now. Just sitting in my car and being in his arms was enough for me. He was different....I don't know how but he was. I mean I know he's happy right now and going through alot...he's with his first love now....and I'm wondering if maybe he was mine?¿? I j/ wish I could go back and live the past month and a half over again...time after time...but I know I'll never forget..and I'll def. never forget him. When I was with him, I was soooo happy..I'm j/ glad I got to talk to him once more. I mean maybe I'll still get to see him, he says he's gonna still come to Milledgeville, but don't people always say that when they leave. I guess it's better than saying have a nice life. Ya know this one's different, because as much as it hurts to hold on to..I don't wanna be over it. I guess I'm gonna go to bed now....tired! I love ya'll, check out the quotes they really fit into my life right now.
~Ashley<3
  
losing your best friend
is like losing a piece of your heart
&& that, no one can ever replace
losing your best friend
is like losing a piece of your heart
Tell me you've had trouble sleeping
that you toss & turn from side to side
That it's my face that you've been seeing
in your dreams at night
* Rascal Flatts ; It's Not Just Me *
The decision to kiss for the first time is the most crucial in any love story. It changes the relationship of two people much more strongly than even the final surrender ; cus this kiss already has within it that surrender
You live & you breathe & then you die. In between..if your lucky ..you fall in love. Some loves stay forever..others are lost in only a day. But it's still there, underneath all the hurt & pride & years. If its true love..it's never forgotten. So when someone says their in love..don't tell them they can't be. Don't say they're too young or its too soon. Love knows no age or length of time. Love is a feeling..deep in your heart..that squeezes you tight & you never want to let it go
I can't let go cus you've given me so much to hold on to.
Whoever said "What you don't know can't hurt you" was a complete & total moron. Cus..for most people I know, not knowing is the worst feeling in the world.
& here i am with our song on repeat
another night full of long remembrances
& never forgotten memories
another night dedicated to you
When I was younger, crying always seemed to be the answer.
Now that I'm older, crying seems to be the only option.
Nothing last forever, so love what you have while you still have it. Don't take anything for granted cus you never know when someting will come to an end.
Lying is bad. Or so we are told constantly from birth ; honesty is the best policy, the truth shall set you free, I chopped down the cherry tree, whatever. The fact is, lying is a necessity. We lie to ourselves cus the truth, the truth freaking hurts, no matter how hard we try to ignore or deny it, eventually the lies fall away, whether we like it or not. But here's the truth about the truth: it hurts. So we lie. <3 - - Meredith
* Grey's Anatomy * | | |
|  Liz, Me, & Kaitlyn at the bowling alley last night...haha sooo much fun, haha we rode round w/ the top down in my convertible haha it was badass.......n soooo cold
ya all the quotes kinda fit into my life right now...
When girls are quiet, millions of things are running through their minds.
When girls are not arguing, they are thinking deeply.
When girls look sparingly at you, they are wondering how long you’ll be around.
When girls answer 'I’m Fine' after a few seconds they are not at all fine.
When girls stare at you, they are wondering whether you are lying or not.
When girls lay their head on your chest, they are wishing for you to be theirs forever.
When girls call you everyday, they want your attention
When girls say 'I love you', they mean it
And when girls say they miss you.. No one in the world, could miss you more
Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can't cover it up
Can't cover it up
i regret every word that i said
to ever make him feel like he
was something special..
D O N ' T L O S E H O P E
when it gets dark, the stars come out
W E F L i R T
all the time, i just
don't know if you are
really interested, or
you are just playing
G A M E S ..
&& he's the color
in my black & white world
we lie to ourselves cus the truth..the truth freakin hurts
When you are a teenage girl. <3
you're friends are more important than your family ; boyfriends are a major priority ; you have to look perfect even if you're going somewhere stupid just incase you see someone you know ; if you have a zit, it's the end of the world ; you sneak out to meet a friend or a guy ; you become irritated by little things ; you whine about guys to everyone ; you're embarrassed to go to the mall with your parents ; you know what you're 'bases' are & you have been to some ; you find the real use of a basement & bedroom windows ; you need new clothes all the time ; you go to parties every weekend. unless you're parents come up with a stupid excuse for you not to go. ; & you go for 'walks' just to find guys <3
 haha such a loser yo!
okay well let's see this weekend was totally awesome...friday night i j/ hung out w/ will....haha omg i was sooooo scared...we like were on a back road...n i dunno it was soooo creepy, i j/ knew we were gonna like get murdered haha n i like started freakin out n panicing. That night was alot of fun, I'm really glad I met him, he's like became a really good friend of mine, haha we always trip the fuck out. and have the most fun in my car too...haha since i like have the most random shit in there. anyways ya saturday i hung out w/ liz n kaitlyn, n lee, haha which is always fun. we rode round w/ the top down like dumbass' (freakin dumbass') hollaring at random ppl, haha got sum attention from some ugly fuckers (i know thats mean ashley) ya i yelled ur hot at this ugly guy n ya he was soooo r u i was like i know! haha it was trippy...good times...ya and we went bowling, n some bitch kept having a fit over a fuckin pink ball...i wanted to throw that shit at her...ya we also played musical vehicles (hahahahahahaha..thought that shit was gonna break down) anyways i spent the night w/ liz...n it was uber-fun, cept i got food poisoning from my chicken fries, n spent most of the night w/ my head in liz's toilet...sickening i know. anyways liz n me chilled today...haha got sum free ice cream at brusters.....haha memories...clints soo hott now. anyways i'm really stressed bout school, but this weekend was rele relaxing n careless fun. i really hope i'm not being too vulnerable n that i'm j/ having fun...i j/ dont wanna get hurt, but i don't think i will this time...n even if in the end i do.......it was welll worth it. i think i'm making the right decisions for me as a 17 year old. sooo far i have no regrets lately with the way things are going n i wanna keep it that way. oooh ya n i have my batallion ball date...i'm taking will! yay that should be fun, since like i always have fun w/ him, haha then it'll j/ be w/ us all dressed up...n hopefully partying afterwards. ya n he'll make a hot picture...which i so deserve, considering last years pics sucked ass. anyways whores n pimps, leave comments!
o ya n add me on myspace if u want... turnxoutxthexlights@hotmail.com
~Ashley<3
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| hey pimps! bout time for an update huh? I totally hate the middle of the week, I have a geometry test next period, n I'm sooo nervous, I really need a good grade. I haven't even started my research paper outline, I hate that I procrastinate...it j/ drives me insane....o ya and i'm def. looking forward to this weekend...its gonna be a good one i think...plans r bowling, shopping, find hott boys, o ya and PARTYING! haha ya i am bound n determined to party this weekend, haha we have already made plans...n ya its gonna happen...i need the stress relief cuz i'm like totally stressed. but anyways things r going good right now like w/ everyone pretty much. gmc is like as shitty as always...somethings never change...drama ya. haha i totally busted my ass at walmart yesterday, thats what i get for talking to courtney bout things haha we prolly shouldn't be talking about anyway haha j/ walking along laughing n BA-BOOM! i hit the floor. this guy was like r u okay....i was like ya the ego's bruised a bit. haha then we had this trucker totally checkin us out...ya sick! but i'mma go cuz i'm rele bored....O ya the new philosophy is "Stay Single, Drink Double, Sleep Triple" haha trippyness(inside joke)!
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*Muah, I'll be back soon *
~Ashley<3
It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love Love
it's like once you have been HURT, you are so SCARED to get attached again, like you have
this fear that EVERY person you start to FALL
for is going to break your heart
~Kisses are like tears the only real ones r the ones we can't hold back. ~ | | |
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Okay well last weekend was interesting, I had a great time, and I met some new people and thats always great. Friday Kaitlyn and me got all this goofy stuff from K*mart and rode around and chilled. Poor Liz was in ATL, haha I missed u hun! Anyways Saturday was loads of fun...I met Kaitlyn at the mall and left my car, and we went and picked up Will(he's awesome!) haha and all night me and him fought over a glowstick...and he almost busted my lip....haha:'( aww kidding! Anyways we went to the Brick ya someone was watching where they were going n almost broke their toe! haha and met this guy Sam they knew...he's purty pimp! O ya and my Mr. Pibb was sooo undrinkablee....tip; if you ever go out w/ them, guard ur drink. Soooo ya it toook forever there, and we saw Chris and Jonathan for like 2.5 seconds, after they almost ran over Will, haha dumbass! Then Kaitlyn, Will and me went bowling and met some people there, and that took forever to, haha we chilled in the party room...that was interesting. I bowled like a 70 something, haha but ya we're soo having a rematch, o ya and I got a strike....what what! Then I almost wrecked coming home and blew another tire...so my dad had to come to Milledgeville at 1am and everything, but he was cool about it. I think I'm starting to like someone...haha and he's hott, and he has a pimp ride. I'm j/ really content right now w/ everything except for my grades. I'm breaking off ties w/ some people, but I think that can only benefit me in the long run...some people aren't meant to be in your life no matter what. Anyways this weekend is gonna be pimp too! I'm getting all siked for Valentines Day, Batallion Ball, and Prom....and I have someone in mind ;)
~Ashley<3
   
Sugarcult
"Back To California"
How long I’ll wait
Just to say goodbye
Ten different ways to enjoy this night
Can’t do this anymore
Won’t feel you anymore
How long I’ll wait
Just to say goodbye
You could never let me in
Holding on until the end
The time I waste just to say goodbye
Out of your way
I could do this right
Can’t see you anymore
Won’t feel you anymore
How long I’ll stay
Just to say goodbye, say goodbye
Leave it all the fights and all
Summer’s getting colder
Drive all night to hold you tight
Back to California
Days went by
We waited and I guess we’re getting older
We couldn’t win in the end
You’re gone
I’m miles away
Turning out your lights
Ten different ways I could end this night
Can’t do this anymore
Won’t feel you anymore
How long I’ll wait
Just to say goodbye, say goodbye
Leave it all the fights and all
Summer’s getting colder
Drive all night to hold you tight
Back to California
Days went by
We waited and I guess we’re getting older
We couldn’t win in the end
You’re gone
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